Friday, December 11, 2009

relief ...

One line.

I had convinced myself that I would see two.

And then I was a bit sad.






I am indeed relieved, because I am definitely not ready for another one yet, although based on my *sad* reaction ... I am now thinking if a whoops happened, I would be okay with it, rather than annoyed. Overwhelmed, but okay.

paranoia

Not that it's even possible, but I am now a bit paranoid that Sprout part 2 could be on the way ...

I've been exceptionally nauseous for days, I don't want to eat cheese, and I've had rampant heartburn. I had convinced myself it was nothing, but it keeps grating at me, and now I need to POAS to see if this is even possible. I hope it's nothing and I'm freaking myself out, because I am sooooo not ready for another one. I *think* I want more kids down the road, but right now, I am not ready. WE are not ready. We need a bit more of a stable (read: more space) living arrangment, and I think James and I have a bit of work to do before we need to add another child to the mix. This, of course, assuming that I can actually control these things and when they happen.

I'm going to the store on my way home from work. I'll have my answer soon enough.

I better only see one line.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

here is thumbkin

Charlotte finally discovered her thumb!
She has been sucking on her fist for a couple weeks now, but today managed to find and suck on her thumb several times! Hopefully this is one step closer to saying goodbye to Mr. Binky. I certainly don't mind if she is a binky girl (heck, I was one), but it'd be easier if we don't have to deal with a mini-tragedy every time the binky falls out of her mouth.

Otherwise, she is becoming such a wonderful baby. She is happy almost all of the time, rarely cries because she is tended to very quickly. Still nurses great and is allowing us to put her down more and more rather than needing to be held all the time.

I miss her so much when I'm at work, but it's good for us to have some time apart, I think. I'm so attached to her, I think it's healthier for me to be away from her than vice versa, but she is very much a momma's girl right now, so it's good that she gets some daddy time.